My dad keeps bugging me about how long it’s been since I last posted, so before he hacks into my account and writes himself, I should probably update you on the past week.
Instead of writing a long post I can summarize in two pictures:
Let me explain. I’ve been spending wonderful amounts of time in Mass and Adoration. However, since I am about to embark on a life altering journey, aka responding to God’s call (and heaven knows where that can lead), I am going through a roller coaster of emotions. I’d imagine someone getting married in three weeks would experience similar feelings.
For example, here is a peek at what was going through my head at Mass today:
Fear threatens to choke me for a moment. Am I doing the right thing? Wisps of old dreams drift in the back of my head – living in the slums like MoT…Then the Father sweeps me up in a moment of consolation. “Accept my gift,” he whispers. I am grasping.
And then their faces appear without warning in my mind – these women who are destined to be my Sisters. At the thought, fear turns into joy. I long to begin now.