“You would not have called to me unless I had been calling to you,” said the Lion.
~ The Silver Chair
I could blame it on Nemo, I could blame it on my lack of free time, but in truth I have not written in almost 3 weeks because I have been mulling over some big decisions and couldn’t quite put into words all that God has been asking of me.
In the past few weeks, I have been astounded by the mysterious, yet wonderful ways in which God opens doors. I have learned that when God swings open a door and asks you to run through it, you make like the apostles and follow him immediately.
I have been begging God to provide a way for my loans to be taken care of. After being accepted, that begging became more persistent and demanding(we’re supposed to be like children, right?) I really need to start being careful what I wish for…
God answered my prayer, but, true to form, not how I was expecting. The same week I was invited to join the Sisters, I was also offered a nannying job which would allow me to pay off a significant chunk of my debt(but I still need your help!) As you may remember, I’ve been part of Chi Rho Catholic Service Corps since September and had committed to do that until June. And yet when this opportunity presented itself, there was a definite sense that it was time to move on and that God was calling me to take a real and active step towards my Vocation. He has given me another chance to respond with an emphatic “yes!” to his call.
So, at the risk of seeming irresponsible and being rejected by those who do not understand my decision, but with the blessing of the TOR Sisters, I have left Chi Rho. It was one of the hardest decisions I have ever made, but I am at peace with it. I will miss my students and coworkers dearly but they will continually be in my prayers.
Stay tuned for updates as I embark on the next step of my journey!
Then I heard the voice of the Lord saying, “Whom shall I send? Who will go for us?”
“Here I am,” I said; “send me!”
~ Isaiah 6:8